It’s hard looking back….I was lonely and had no-one to share my thoughts with. I mean, who would want to listen anyway???

As I have just typed up 6 months of my life in 2 days, the emotion it conjures up within is a strange one. I knew it would be hard to go back and I often ask myself why am I doing this? And I really don't know or do I? Maybe by typing them … Continue reading It’s hard looking back….I was lonely and had no-one to share my thoughts with. I mean, who would want to listen anyway??? →

December 1991

01 (Sunday) – Slept till about 3pm. Really boring day. Night was OK. I s’pose. Still thinking about G but there you go. All I could think was this time last week etc. 02 – Went into Tech. Much better with G. Went up town with him and was talking about family etc. good laugh … Continue reading December 1991 →

November 1991

01 (Friday) – Went to Birmingham. Good journey. Went to club at night. It was a goth club. It was OK. Tired. 03 – Stayed in. Didn’t go out much cos RS got tired real quick so stayed in most of week but had brill time. 04 – 06 – Went up town. Don’t like … Continue reading November 1991 →

October 1991

01 (Tuesday) – NOTHING MUCH HAPPENED AT TECH BUT GREAT TIME WITH EVERYONE AROUND. 02 – M’s got a car. M phoned about 10pm. It’s really nice. I didn’t know what to say but I’ll see him tomorrow nite. 03 – BLACK CROWES CAMBRIDGE CORN EXCHANGE – Went to work £23. Went back to Thetford. … Continue reading October 1991 →

September 1991

01 (Sunday) – WROTE AT TOP OF PAGE ‘HAVEN’T WROTE DIARY FROM 2/9/91 – 4/10/91 Then I have written diagonally in capitals across pages and so to show this I shall just type dates for the week with any notes I have wrote specifically to a day 02 – 08 with BACK TO COLLEGE and … Continue reading September 1991 →

August 1991

01 (Thursday) – No leads at work. Went to meditation, it actually broke through. The walk went through a woods and I sat cross legged in a clearing and I felt the sun + bright light penetrating then I began to rise above trees into and above clouds. Loads of people all ages seemed to … Continue reading August 1991 →

July 1991

01 (Monday) – Phoned R – got to phone him on Wednesday. Went into Lynn. Got card for E, S. Sent E’s off and sent letters off to RS and L. Council is sorting things out. OK. Went to meditation at nite and M doesn’t want us to go anymore because it’s too flowery for … Continue reading July 1991 →

June 1991

01 (Saturday) – NEW MODEL ARMY / THE MISSION & KILLING JOKE, FINSBURY PARK, LONDON – Went to gig. It was quite good but didn’t leave me on a high like they normally do. Danced for ‘New Model Army’ and ‘The Mission’. Didn’t like any other bands. There was loads of stalls there. Bought L … Continue reading June 1991 →

May 1991

01 (Wednesday) – NL and PG came round in morning so I stayed with them. Dossed in house all day with everyone. NL stayed the night. Got pretty heated, it was good and I could of let go a couple of times but I didn’t obviously. He holds himself well, it was good. I was … Continue reading May 1991 →

April 1991

01 (Monday) – Another Fuck Off Day. 02 – Really wanting NL all week Bastard!! 03 – Shithole 04 – Got off with NL, he’s really nice but I think all bastards are, don’t stupid fuckin bitch! 05 – NL got off with a girl while sitting next to me, the bastard. Well I know … Continue reading April 1991 →